Saturday, July 21, 2012

After the Storm

During our travels throughout our lives we will weather many storms. Some we will come through unscathed and going forward with gusto. Other storms will leave us bewildered, confused and hurt. But after every storm there is always a rainbow. God positions the rainbows for us to see his Glory and Love for each and everyone of us. Sometimes, we just can't see the rainbows. There are times when we may have to strain our eyes to be able to see the rainbow and when we do, we generally stand in awe of its splendour. God's love is like that. It is always there for us to see, hold unto and lean on. But because of the storms we go through we often ask, where is He when I need Him the most. He is always as close as your heart, you just have to let go, Believe and Trust in Him.
God will never give you a Storm you can't handle and He will never forsake you, no matter how bad you may think it is. Life is about choosing the journey that God has planned for you and Trusting in Him and Him alone. We tend to mess things up because we think, we know better. I am forever trying to HELP HIM, by sticking my hand onto the stirring spoon in the pot. I have learned in the last two weeks that if I just sit back and leave it all in His encompassing hands, things will turn out just fine.
So when you think that you are unable to handle what is happening in your world, Stop, Listen and Look for the Rainbow. God is right there, ready to show you where your Rainbow is. All you have to do is Listen.

"Blessed are those that hear the word of God and obey it"
Luke 11:28

Until we post again,
Roscoe and I.

Friday, July 13, 2012

A Special Day

Today is a Special Day. This is the day that my Heavenly Father decided was my time to enter this world. I came here in the wee still hours of the morning. In fact I have been told that there may have been a mix up on the actual time of my arrival. There have been comments that I came into this world a day earlier, which means that maybe yesterday was my Special Day. The only people that would have been able to tell me the truth are no longer in this world. But is it really that important? In years past it was always really important to me to celebrate birthdays; whether it was my parents, sister, or kids. I always liked to TRY to make their days special for them. We would have whatever their favourite meal was for dinner, cake and ice cream. Life was fun. We didn't always have a lot of money but there was always a gift or two for the little ones etc.

Life is not like that now. As we grow older things change and life seems to become complicated. At this time in my life I expected to be relaxed, living in a loving and fulfilling home. Enjoying my grand kids and "trying" to help out my daughters with whatever they needed help in. My life is not like that. There is DRAMA in it that I do not want. Curves have been thrown at me that are right off the "Jerry Springer Show" or any of those other type shows. The things that have happened to me in this last week or so will definitely have a life altering effect on me, my girls, my grandchildren and my closest and dearest friends. We all thought that a particular person was genuine and trustworthy. He has turned out to be a bigamist, a liar, a fraud, a thief and too many other things that I can't even think of right now. He has not only hurt me and mine but he has also hurt people in what I thought was his PAST LIFE. These people are/were still a part of his "CURRENT LIFE" and he has determined or never planned on telling them that he had moved on. He has cleaned out this other lady as well as myself. I pray that God will help him to see all the bad that he has done and the hurt he has caused. When all of this was going on I had little nudges that were not what I was really wanting to pay attention to. I would pray that God would convict this man's heart so that he would decide to be at HOME where he belonged, thinking that where I was, was where home was. God answered the prayers. This man did, I think, get convicted and went home but forgot to tell me that his home was somewhere else. He also forgot to tell me, that there never was a divorce from the other person, when he married me. This poor other lady had no idea as to what all he had been doing for the last 12 years behind her back. I don't know if she will ever be able to trust him again or not. I pray to God that they will be able to get over this and she can and will forgive him. Life is to short to live with this kind of pain. It is difficult to go ahead when somebody has hurt you as bad as this and even more difficult to know whether you could trust another person in a partner-like friendship.

I know and believe that God has a plan for me but right now I have no idea which way my path is going. I am finding it very hard to see the "Lighthouse" in the fog. I am taking each day one at a time and I have a lot of Christian Friends and Family that are standing beside me through these hours of despair. If any of you are reading this, please know that I am so grateful for all of your love and support. I am trying very hard to be on God's radar system so that I am following His path and not mine.
 God Bless You All.
Happy 60th Birthday to Me.
Until we post again.

Roscoe and I

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

Unexpected Turns

In this life of trials, tribulations and joys there are always unexpected turns. Just when you think that you have things figured out and life is going to be just the way you want it to be, other then maybe some minor little changes, something gets thrown at you that makes you put the breaks on full force.
Just such an event has happened to me in this last week. It has left me devastated and unsure as to who I am and what I am suppose to be doing with my life.

I have taken some time to be with my oldest daughter and her family to try to determine if what has happened was my fault or did I walk into this situation with "Rose Coloured Glasses" on. I still have not determined the answer to this but I do know this, in the future, my heart has a great big huge solid brick and mortar wall around it. It is so high, that nobody in my age bracket, will want to take the time to climb the wall or find my heart because it will be to difficult. I know that there are some very good and respectful truck drivers out there but it will be a long time before I will  be trusting any of them. That is all that I am saying regarding this matter. I may at sometime want to blog about this event but right now it hurts to much.

Now on to other things. I am trying to keep my head out the above field by trying to keep busy with creating things for my Etsy Shops. Some new wall hangings will be appearing in the upcoming week as well as some tea cosies, new aprons, hot pads, and oven mitts. These will be on:
On my other site there will be new sweaters for the little angels in your life. I am going to be working on some new smocked items as well for:

Wee Beginnings will also be undergoing a change in its appearance. So please keep checking to see what is going to happen over there as well.
So until we are ready to post again please keep Roscoe and I in your prayers because we so definitely need them.